Listening to my Higher Self, El, I finally heard perhaps the most important truth of all.
I pushed on in my conversation with my Higher Self, who I’m calling El, and asked, What is the gift of my aloneness?
And this time my answer came as a stream of questions.
Did the loss of your intimate relationship not force you to reclaim your projections and encounter many hidden aspects of yourself, in the process healing, by loving, all of your Being, and teaching you how to give unconditional love to others?
And did this not make you a better healer as well as a more peaceful human being?
Handicaps or disabilities can be things like poverty, a less than pleasing appearance, or a lack of freedom, support or community.
In my case, My Higher Self, El, revealed, my handicap, or disability, is the lack of several types of partnership that I have always fervently desired and am not currently enjoying in my life – the intimate kind; the sustained, soulful work/business variety; and the type that comes from a group of people working together, up close and persistently, on a cause that is dear to their hearts.
The other day (actually several years ago when I wrote the story I’m now telling you) a good friend sent me a video about an autistic boy. You know the plot: A person overcomes a handicap to accomplish something amazing, their achievement is celebrated and emotionally shared by lots of people, and the viewer sheds a lot of happy tears.